Smother (As you choke)

smother
V.
1. to extinguish (a fire) by covering so as to cut it off from the air
2. to suffocate
3. to surround or overwhelm (with).

Incessant masquarade.
What privilege lies within a thousand silences?
I serve no purpose other than my own.

I'll crawl in your bed before dawn,when time hangs by a thread, like a constrictor embracing it's unsuspecting prey.I'll watch your dreams in the mirror above as they change from blue to purple ,and strangle them one at a time.

Now tell me, am I not merciful?

Get out of my tub

Feeling tired,lonesome.Another day,another dare.I can't really rely on truth,as it turnes out, for with great struggle it has yet to be earned .
I don't wanna open my eyes,face myself...brace myself for this.
My intoxicated mind is playing tricks on me.
I need to sink,for I no longer have the desire to swim in this crowd.
My steps lead me to the nearest place I can feel at ease:water races against my limbs.There's nothing here but it's echo as it smashes into my walls.The smell of arnica on my scarred skin,pieces of me falling into the cold.
Me and my shadow.A curse on us both:bond together for all timet.I smoke my lucky's as she sits on the toillet seat trashing COSMO.Oh,for chrissake, just give me 5 minutes alone.
She just laughes at my face: "You know what,I don't like your attitude.You've got anger-management issues.Why don't you try that yoga scam or,pilates..or jumping in front of the 8.52 train as a matter of fact?".
"Anger management?How's that even a concept?"
The bitch just wasn't having it :"It's not my fault you cannot reach your innerself.Try to get out more, read a book,buy a puppy."
"Oh don't qoute me bumper-stickers!what do you ...??"
"Everything there is to know.And trust me when I say I would rather not know most of your junk.I'm here for you.That's what shadows are for,ey,darlin'?"
I would so want to beat the livin shit out of her.'cept she doesn't have one.
Bloody buffoon...What do you want from me?Why can't you be a nice shadow, like everyone else's and at least have an ounce of consideration and maybe,just maybe...SHUT THE FUCK UP?
"Why can't we be friends? You could talk to me... best confidant you'll EVER get.At least I won't hit on your boyfriend...how's that for a deal?"
"Toto, it's time for you to go to Kansas. I swear to God I'll hit that switch and let you play with your buddies for the rest of the day."
"I've seen the way you look at him.The way you talk to him..."
Hemoglobine rush from my toes to my head.
"Don't worry,it's not like I'm eager to get you in the news or somethin..."
"Just do yourself a favour,and cut it off.I'm not in the mood for this."
"Are you ever...?You're trying to brush him out of your flesh, so that it doesn't get to your blood so that it doesn't get to your heart."
"Look,I'm not into playing your little mindgames right now...I'm in need for my breakfast vodka, and you need to cut me some slack.."
"You know...it doesn't really matter if you give it a thought or not.It doesn't really matter if you suck on 12 gallons of vodka, caipirioshkas,mojitos ...this won't go away. They'll all just taste the same: electric and sweet. Taste of his lips crushing yours.Tiny liquid nitrogen molecules destroing your immune system like plague.You WILL collapse,and when you do,there'll be no one to collect your sorry ass off the premises.I just want you to..."
Lights off.
No need to hear nor feel.
Now, get out of my tub!

Lady Gaga and my 10 excuses

"Pop music will never (again) be low brow."

I used to not even consider this pop-electro somethin till she came along. Why can't we help but love her?

1.She is one decadent, over the top, mind- poisoning, party-inflicting godess.

2. It's electro-pop with actual lyrics to it.

3.Her syllable po-poping is kinda hot. (as in d-d-d-dance)Makes me think tourette meets willson's disease.

4.I personaly believe she's Christina Aguillera's R&B-hating evil twin.

5.Who else can hump an inflatable Orca and get away with it?



6.She can't sing for her life, but she's got kickass dance routines.

7.She took a Christmas Carol and turned it into a nookie song.

8.I'd watch her videos for the girl-on-girl action alone.

9.Have you ever seen another artist being more explicit about oral sex?(50 cent doesn't count because he's NOT an artist-so don't even get me started on that).

10.It seems she pledged allegience to that nasty Cher panties.Makes her ass look fat though.

dou zo yoroshiku

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there i go again
pretending to be you
make-believing
that i have a soul beneath the surface
trying to convince you
it was accidentally on purpose

it's THAT time of the year

M-am intrebat,nu de putine ori, de ce ar pierde cineva atata timp cu fonturi,sablonase,gadgeturi, pareri ,poze, comentarii la comentarii , daca nu dintr-un maniacal exercitiu de narcisism,iubire de sine si auto-compatimire?
Si mi-am zis atunci: foarte tare,frate.
Ramane de vazut daca ramane sa va ingros voua randurile, sa va tulbur apele sau sa va las indiferenti.
Nu va plac,pe vasta voastra majoritate, dar sunt gata sa-mi gasesc mantuirea intre voi.Cam mesianic din partea mea,dar ce pot sa spun...indurarea mea e mare.
Ce vreau?sa ma scufund cu voi in mocirla si sa ies pe partea cealalta lepadandu-ma de mine.
Va astept pe toti, de dupa tastaturile voastre, de dupa fondul de ten si parfumurile scumpe, de dupa muntii si angoasele voastre...pe cunoscuti si necunoscuti,va astept sa ne tavalim in neputinta de a ne salva de la simulacrul propriei fiinte.

ps: arrogance has to be earned